It should be expected, where I live. First day of spring and all I see is grey, all I feel is cold. But something about this season is different. I need the sun. I need to feel warmth on my skin and the sun on my face. I need to smell the grass mixed with dew when I wake. I need to breathe warmth into my lungs and know life is on the way.
I ask, “Why the cold?”
I want all of the layers peeled back. I need to see what’s left there, underneath the layers, after this long, dark and ever-so-cold winter. The winter of ice and snow and storms that made me want to hibernate, head buried in a warm blanket and never come out. Is there heat left in me? Is the fire out? Is there still flesh under these layers? Am I calloused beyond recognition?
Are my protective layers ready to be shed? Will I survive without them?
Dear God, tell me you have been doing something underneath it all. Am I a frozen wasteland, too damaged by environment and the elements to see a resurrection of sorts?
Then the thought enters my mind… could it be? Have those elements… that ice, that snow that felt so bitterly cold against my flesh and bone… so cold I thought I’d never survive it…. have those very same elements become my water supply underneath the surface? Have those cold waters melted into this soil of my heart, of my life?
I can’t escape the hope, the feeling in my gut that under all the layers…. as I peel them back, slowly but deliberately, I will find something fertile, something green. I expect tender spouts, starter plants of a new variety.
All things new? That sounds familiar. Something beautiful? I have heard that somewhere.
Yes, I expect life and growth and green. I suspect seed has taken root and sprouted, ready to grow and thrive, with help from the spring rain, sun and warmth… with help from the giver of life.
After all, this is the season of hope and anticipation.
People thought all hope had been lost, didn’t they? In that cold, dark season of the grave, when the sky darkened and lovers of you wept for loss and death and darkness.
Yet something stirred, something green and new. Something that looked, sounded and even smelled of life surfacing once again… and the world was never the same.