Fear not, Daniel, for from the first day that you set your heart to understand and humbled yourself before God, your words have been heard, and I have come because of your words (Daniel 10:12)
Each week we open our home for a gathering of friends sharing food and participating in Bible study. This past week as we discussed the book of Daniel, we began to contemplate what it was about Daniel that made him the one chosen by God for such an extraordinary purpose. I was led to Daniel 10:12 and was elated to find an answer to our question, although inevitably one question leads to more questions when studying God’s word. Could it be that Daniel’s desire to understand the things of God, combined with his posture of humility were the elements that attracted God to Daniel? (see my friend Mindy’s beautiful post about humility here)
Since this discussion on Thursday, God has been reminding me of some lessons He spoke to my heart several years back. While I in no way believe that we can ever understand the depth, magnitude and complexities of God, I do believe that He is searching for people who desire to understand Him more. I believe He wants to reveal Himself to us in profound, life-altering ways. He has mercifully done this for me time after time.
In my early twenties I was dealing with some residual grief due to the loss of my father at 16. I remember one day praying, or rather casting blame on God for taking my dad away from me too soon. From somewhere deep within, I heard words along these lines….
How will you know Me as comforter if you do not grieve?
Woah. I put that on the back-burner, not sure I could handle the implication of that statement. As I walked on this journey a little longer with God, I found Him asking me similar questions.
How will you know Me as Provider if you never have to trust?
How will you know Me as Peace-speaker if you never face turmoil?
Then came the big one.
Would you know Me as Father the way you do if your earthly father still lived?
As far back as I remember I have said the prayer….. “God, I want to know You.” I have whispered it in the dead of the night. I have cried it out through sobs of broken-ness. I have shouted it in desperation. I have sung it out with all that is within me. I have declared it with joyful expectation.
Could it be that all along God has heard my prayer and has responded by revealing Himself through trials? Could it be that I must be willing to endure, endure, endure before I will ever truly begin to grasp the greatness of God? To truly understand Him as healer, must I face sickness? Sure, I may believe He can heal. I may have faith and know that is an aspect of His character. But isn’t it revealed to me in a deeper way when He heals me or someone close to me? To understand Him as Savior, don’t I need salvation? To understand Him as Light, I surely must face darkness.
Looking at my life in this light lessens the fear of the unknown. It gives purpose to the pain. For what better reward is there than knowing Him more? Can any of us ever be a Daniel without seeking to understand? Can I ever fulfill my purpose in His kingdom if I don’t have a posture of humility, ready and willing to endure what comes my way…. knowing it may lead me even a little closer to Jesus? God, I want to know You. I want to know You as healer, deliverer, provider, savior, strength, light, comforter, guide, peace-speaker, FATHER… even if that desire takes me on a road of tests and trials. Perhaps that road will be the very path that leads me to becoming an instrument like Daniel, through which Your glory is revealed to the nations. Even if it doesn’t, knowing You a little more is enough reason to walk that road.
What about you? Has there been a time in your life God has revealed Himself in a powerful way as a result of difficulty? Would you trade that experience? In what other ways do you seek to understand God? As always I would love to get a conversation started with you!